My Oops Moment With Love

There’s a funny thing about love, it will find you in the most unusual circum¬stances, at the most unlikely times. Love will come upon you, throw its arms around you and transform your entire existence. Unfortunately, most of us won’t recognise the experience or understand the impact when it’s happening.
Life is all about love; love is the only true meaning of life .Being alive means that we are occupants in love’s house and are accountable to love’s rules. Perhaps it’s because love rarely shows up in the place we expect it to or looks the way we expect it to look .I spent two years of my life being in love with this man, I call him my “Bee’ because he helped me search, question and heal myself.
I concluded that I was not good enough to be loved by him or anyone. In this moving, conclusion drawing process I also made some decisions about the truth about love, loving or relationships. As time went by I became very clear that all the things I thought about love had nothing to do with it.
I realised that I couldn’t recognise love because I had never actually seen it, I had a picture in my mind of what it should look like, but that picture had been cracked a long time ago. I also discovered that love is more than just a good feeling, it is more than just being needed or having your needs met.
I came to realise that love is inner personal experi¬ence of total well being that did not match any picture I had ever seen.
My oops moment is that you get what you want only to discover that it is not what you thought it would be.
The truth is that love is buried in your soul, and no relationship with anyone can unearth it or activate it in your life. I have learnt that relationships are not contained, what you are doing in the name of love, for the sake of love, will show up in every area of your life.
Love is a union with somebody or something outside oneself, under the condition of retaining the separateness and integrity of one’s own self”
Much love